A humble reminder...

Our mistake is that we want God to send revival on our terms. We want to get the power of God into our hands, to call it to us that it may work for us in promoting and furthering our kind of Christianity. We want still to be in charge, guiding the chariot through the religious sky in the direction we want it to go, shouting "Glory to God," but modestly accepting a share of the glory for ourselves in a nice inoffensive sort of way. We are calling on God to send fire on our altars, completely ignoring the fact that they are OUR altars and not God's...

A. W. Tozer

I'm all out of love...?

LOVE, a word that means so much, a word that carries so much weight, a word that calls for sacrifice that can often be so painful...

I'm beginning to realise that it's so hard to love.

I don't mean the BGR kind of love (yes that too is very difficult), but I refer to the common day loving...of friends, family and for me, my patients...

Was shopping for a gift for my parents' 23 anniversary and realised how much I didn't know them...was walking ard aimlessly, racking my brains for a gd and practical gift...but the more I realise how much a failure I was...That night, I had a long talk with my bro, n realised too how much I've neglected my siblings...

To my friends, they have all been such a blessing to me and I wish to love them as much. But there are often so much to give and honestly, sometimes I feel quite drained doing so. So many to care, so many to be concerned for...Even listenning can be tiring. Yet, I still love them...I still want to be part of their lives, to seek to share the joy that the Lord has blessed me with...

And not forgetting the many others I interact with everyday eg patients, tutors, shop keepers, bus drivers, neighbours...

There is so many to love!!! Yet there is only 1 me, an ordinary man with limited resources....真的是力不从心!!

"For God so LOVED the world that He gave His one and only son [to die for the world] that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life" John 3:16 --> haha, even God had to sacrifice so much to love us. And what's more, He loved the WORLD!!!! Every single human being on earth...

Man, am I glad we have such a loving Heavenly Father who never runs out of love. I am humbled and reminded that I love not out of wat I have, but out of the overflowing love that God has for me. While my personal love bank is running low, God fills me so that I can love...

A friend asked why I can smile all the time...I guess the simple answer is that I'm overflowing with God's love :)

Singapore owns Pedra Branca!!!

Hoooray!!!!! After 28 years of dispute, WE HAVE WON!!!! 3 Cheers to the magnificent team working so hard at The Hague, Way to go!!!!

Haha, today has been a day of unexpected good news:
1. My examinor for OSCE is the lovely Prof Aymeric Lim...and it's on Wed :) but must not be complacent...

2. Jon got into medicine. It was a surprise. Just after I msg him, and he replied not having receive any letter from Dean's office. I replied (tat if God closes one door, He will surely open another, so have faith), and prayed, and he suddenly called to say he's been accepted!!!! How cool!!! God really works in ways we cannot see!!!

When one becomes ortho...

I reacll one tutor telling us that most docs will die of their own speciality eg cardiologist of MI, oncologist of cancer, OnG of...erm...getting beaten by wife :P

Anyway, I'm now doing ortho and guess what, I just became an ortho patient!!! Was doing some exercise and there was this acute pain along my left deltoid. Pain was localised there n was progressively worsening. Aggrevated by movement n relieved on rest. P/E: tenderness along greater tuberosity, limited external rotation due to the pain...I think I injured my teres minor or infraspintus tendon, resulting in tendinitis...

Haha, now my both shoulders got pathology...$1/min for all who want to examine me :P

OUCH!!!! how to go wards like tat :(

Oxymorons

Learning alot of oxymoron these days...some having such deep meaning:

"Free is an expansive word"
given when I was asking a friend "when wld you be free?". My personal take: saying that we are free implies (1) we are wasting time, thus it being expansive (2) offering that we are able to take on a role/job/work, hence implying sacrificing other areas (think opportunity cost), which may be expansive...Guess my friend meant the latter.

"God's silence is loud"
Forgot where i heard it from, but I've personally experienced this. Dark moments when God seem to be so distant, so far from the pain I'm going thru...these were terrible and painful moments. Yet they were times i cry out to Him from the depth and cling onto Him.

Other less meaningful thou interesting eg "army intelligence"...and many i can't rmb...(i quote my friend who quotes his tutor)

Dear friend...

My dear friend,

You have been silent too long. I hope I'm wrong, but you seem to be avoiding the whole world...avoiding us...

Maybe this is the way you cope with stress and failure...

But you are getting people around you worried...At least I am...

Ok, maybe I'm being selfish...

But I really hope you would return to the bubbly you, the joyful you...

My dear friend, we are here!!!!

Life is a journey measured in friends and not miles

I thank God for the many friends He has blessed me with...and I pray that I would become a blessing to them as well...

Watching in silence

It is a strange and unpleasent feeling knowing what one goes thru yet not able to express it openly...

Dear Friend,

I've seen you suffer in silence, tormented by the tots that plague your mind...

I yearn so much to be a listenning ear, to share your burdens, to encourage you...To tell you that God loves you and you just have to run to him...

Yet, wat am I to? I can't tell you what I-think-you're-thinking...it's such a complicated matter. I don't know the words to say or what to do...

And all I can do is to pray for you from afar...

Spine exam

who says ortho is brainless...

After spending hours discussing simple test, who can say ortho is brainless.

Watch the videos and be mesmerised. These ppl are sleek!!! May our OSCE be as zhai as them :P

McMurray test
Anyway, i think the books are wrong:

Med meniscus = varus force (ie push outwards) and external rotate (ie turn outwards)
Lat Meniscus = valgus force (ie push inwards) and internal rotate (ie turn inwards)

Aim: is to get the meniscus crushed by the tibia n femur.
(+) --> click is felt or pain elicited



FABER test vs Patrick's test

? if different. many websites say different things
eg. Wiki says FABER test (Flexion Abduction External Rotation) is a test for evidence of hip arthritis but Patrick's test is for sacroiliitis. Other sites below say they are the same, see:
- http://physicaltherapy.about.com/od/orthopedicsandpt/ss/LEspecialtests_2.htm
- http://www.med.ufl.edu/rheum/rheumTests.htm#patrick

I think they are the same test but each looking out for different pathology. Any opinions?

Patrick's test: see http://courses.washington.edu/hubio553/glossary/patrick.html

Up close and personal

Medicine is really the place to build friendships...we get up close and personal each day...sometimes even getting a little touchy...

i mean literally :)

Of evolutionist and creationist

A curious lecturer was asking who were evolutionist and creationist.

Then he selected an evolutionist and asked him "would you have created the hand in this way (refereing to the rays of the digits pointing to the scaphoid tubercle)?"

I found it amusing for the evolutionist to say "Yes". How can an evolutionist agree to creation?

I am a creationist.

subPensive

Inspired by a dear friend...here comes subPensive, a platform for me to share my tots with you nosy ppl out there :P Have fun!!! Do drop me a tag once or twice so I know you exist...