Change

Change is the only constant

Someone once remarked, that at the medical center, the coming of every new MO is like a change in dynasty. New policies, new working style, new relationships. I cannot help but agree. Between me and Shaohui, there are already a lot of differences. Not that Shaohui is not good, in fact, he has been a big inspiration to me in terms of managing the medical center eg caring for the medics (going off at 430pm, cohesion, talking to medics etc), medical management (being objective to separate admin from real medical probs). It's just that we are different. I'm sure Mdm Annie can testify to our difference and she certainly has to learn how to work with different MO (since she has been here for so many MOs)

But now, I feel like I am in the middle of a change, a change in the medics whom I have worked with. I have already witnessed the leaving (ORDing) of so many of my medics.Many good and wonderful one, .many whom I've already lost contact. But this time, the sense of loss is much greater, and I must say, more painful. Beidi, Wayne, Qujuan, Dom and David will all be ORDing in a few days time, and these are some of the closest I've worked with. Already I am missing them, and with Wayne's last msg, the sense of loss is intensified. The reality is hitting, they are really leaving...and I will certainly miss them.

I fear. I fear the break in relationship/friendship. I fear I would never see them again in such a setting. I fear the change and uncertainty that awaits.

Change is in the air. A new group of medics will have to step up and as with new leadership, there will bound to be change. Yet, part of me still wants to live in the old dynasty, resistant to change. I wish things will still remain the same, function the same, relationship still maintained. But the logical side tells me that that is not wise, I need to embrace change. I am not immortal, not a vampire living unchanging. I cannot expect the new leaders to function the same as their predecessors. I cannot allow myself to live in history and worst still, to plasticize the new leadership, suppressing their creativity and passion. I need to let go of the past and allow the future the reveal itself. I need to give the new leaders space to grow and take charge. The challenge is how to guide them yet not be seen to be oppressing them. O Lord, pls grant me wisdom to do so, to speak truth with love.

I too will be ORDing soon. As  much as many say they dread army life, I thank God for the many beautiful memories that this army experience has given me. Father, help me to enjoy every moment of it, to treasure each struggle and challenge, to live each experience to its fullest. Father, help me to make to maximum impact I can, to influence and encourage, to guide and nurture, to be the salt and light here in NSMC. O Lord, I pray not that my legacy live on, but Your glory and love to pass on through the ages of many other MOICs to come. May NSMC always be a place of encouragement and development, a beacon of light to reflect Your glory! Father, pray that you continue to bless the medical center and all of us working here.

As for the many medics that I've had the privilege to work with and see them ORD, Father, I pray that the friendship we have built and the shared memories/experiences we had will be a lasting one. May they be beautiful memories, which will bring us a smile when we recall. Father, I pray that I have been a good officer to them, to encourage and guide them in the way of the Lord. May Your spirit continue to work in their lives, to guide them and shape their hearts, to transform them and help them know You.

Dear guys, I'm going to miss you all very very much. Stay in touch ya. Don't just walk past me when we meet (though there is a high chance I may not recognize you since after army, you would all change hairstyle and stuff) :P I hope that the memories you had here at NSMC were beautiful and your experience here meaningful. Take care and may the Lord bless and guide you!