Running is good...

Finally had the discipline to run...thanks to Jame's advice and encouragement...

Figured it out, that exercising is more than to look nice, but really to keep fit. Fit, both physically (so I won't fall sick easily) and mentally (to be more alert and concentrate better)...

Need to exercise regularly...

Ode to my phone...

I'm really very sad...but thank God not devastated...but really sad...all my contacts, my msg, my memories...all gone!!!!

And such a lovely phone too...a phone so many have said it's very nice. The sleek flip with it's elegant black backdrop. A simple phone without the complex functions, but having everything a simple man like me needs. I rely on it's alarm, depend on it's calculator, communicate thru it's phones n SMSs...

I've not only lost a phone, but a companion...One who has shared in my tears and sweat, who has always been so close to my side...

My dear Samsung phone...I'll miss you so...May you cont'd to be a blessing to whoever holds you as you have been to me...

Of lonely nights and whrilpool minds...

Man...I'm so confused inside...

I tot **** forgotten me. But reading the blog, I realised **** hasn't...but still misses me...

Me? I...erm..haven't forgotten us either. I've been telling everyone that **** has been a close to perfect match to my criteria, yet...at least now...I'm not ready to go into a r/s...

Why? I guess it's really not the time. My mind is only fixed upon VCF and studies this year and thinking of a r/s makes me feel stressed. Yet, how beautiful sld it be to have someone to support me all the way thru this tough times...But I'm just not ready, I'm not prepared...I fear history repeating itself, where I felt so artificial being with **** that it becomes a stress...I know I'm selfish, but this is no joking matter and definitely no time to act hero (and sacrifice my feelings for responsibility)... such a conflict...I hate conflicts!!!!

It's 18 days and counting...Father Lord, what sld I do that wld glorify you?

May I learn to speak love in truth.

Tots from Job

Just started reading the book of Job, covered till chapter 14.

The more I read of Job, the more amazed I am of his faith in God and trust in Him. Even when he was afflicted with such terrible plight (lost all his children and property in a night, plus was cursed with a terrible skin disease), he never turn to curse God or blame Him for his sufferings. Yet, he was always praising God!!!!

[after knowing all his children had died and his property lost] Job got us and tore his robe and shaved his head, Then he fell to the ground in worship and said
"Naked I came from my mother's womb,
and naked I will depart.
The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away;
may the name of the Lord be praised." --- Job 1:20-21

Just imagine that!!! It is always a natural tendency to want to blame God for everything bad that has befallen on us. It's so easy to say that "God hates me" thus he sent down curses instead of blessings, take us thru the road of suffering instead of joy, gives us affliction instead of affirmation...BUT NO!!! God is a God of love (John 3:16 "For God so loved the world...") and he definitely does not despise us (Genesis 1:31 "God saw all that he had made, and it was VERY good"). I pray that I will rmb these and praise God even in times of sufferings.

Well, Job's friends oso gave me some tot about myself. Job's friends truly cared for Job (hey, they mourned with him in silence for 7 days [Job2:11-13]), yet their words of comfort became words of pain. They were constantly telling Job that his sufferings are due to his sins and that he should quickly repent and seek God's forgiveness. But Job was a righteous man! How often have I been judging my friends instead of offering comfort. While the bible says "If your brother sins, rebuke him" (Luke 17:3), it also calls us to "speak truth in love" (Eph 4:15). O Lord, give me wisdom in speaking with my friends, to offer comfort and direction.

Journey from Ponggol to Koven

I just walked from Ponggol to Koven...yes, WALKED!!! In the middle of the night for nearly 4h...

Crazy?!?!

Yeah, I think so...especially when one is in jeans and carrying 2 bags of year 2 notes.

But ah well, it's the holidays and it's not everyday one can oversleep on the last train, get lost in the wilderness of uncivilised Punggol and walk with only gut feelings as guide...

Ya, I can be crazy some times :P

National worship leader competition?!?!

This ridiculous tot just came to mind...

I pray that no fool will ever come up wif such a competition for worship is meant to be directed towards God and not to ourself...

R&R

Woke up prematurely at 4am this morning after some weird nightmare....

Took a shower (yes, disgusting me didn't shower b4 sleeping...too tired lar)

Went to pray...realised tat I haven't been spending alot of time praying...started of with the regular nicely nicely phrased prayer...but then suddenly finding myself being so artificial. God is not a god who hears only the nice word, but He wants to hear our sincere prayer...and I just spoke my mind....

So many things to pray, friends, family, ministry, studies, walk with Him...All in the rojak style (like how i wld present my history...). It was really fun and refreshing...No wonder God calls us to spend quiet time with Him (even Jesus woke up in the early mornings to pray)...it really restores my soul.

Christelle reminded me of the need for a personal retreat, SK reminded me that I've been too busy n sld really spend time to rest, Linus reminded me of the need to pray...I guess I really need to spend time with God in a personal retreat...

R&R = rest and retreat...Have you spent yours?

Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian

A simply lovely show...how I wish some magic exsisted in this world so that I might have the fleeting chance of living in such a beautiful fairy-tale land..."Emo-ing" with the show...

No full stop, just a comma...

It seems so long ago...

We have moved on a great deal since then...

Guess we have both grown older, maybe a little wiser...

I tot that we made a nice full stop then...

But no...I realised that I haven't forgotten you...

and i guess you haven't forgotten me either :)

O Lord, please grant me (us) wisdom to know how to face each other again.

Prodigal friend

Dear friend,

I'm so glad you are out of the woods...Welcome back!!!!!

Though it has been a journey of doubt, worrying and uncertainty, we have learnt much thru it...of ourselves and of each other...The road ahead may not be any easier, but least we know we have each other...for support and encouragement...

On my part, forgive me for my frquent ignorance...I too need to learn how to relate to people and be humble to care for others more...Feel free to slap me on my back sld I do sth wrong :P

I can' wait for us to step into the wards again...

Team work...

An answered prayer...

Unknowingly, God has been teaching me what it means to work with people. Have been praying bout my CG, praying for my subcom and how I sld be working with them...

Just as I was walking home from CBS, it came to me that I can tend to be very individualistic when it comes to work and thus arise many struggles about teamwork.

Teamwork is:

- not about doing everything yourself, even if the end result may seem better in your eyes.

- not about telling others "It's ok, you can go for holiday, I can handle everything", but trying to accomodate each others schedule, learning to respect each other and working thru such constrains.

- It's bout working together, together as a whole. Not just one makes the decision and say it's by everyone but really getting everyone involved, thou often then not, it can be a painful process.

- about painful sacrifice...sacrifice of pride, of the need to get things done (your way), of time and energy trying to work things out.

- a decision.

- essentially, it is about God!!!