The jorney to death...

We will all die one day. No matter how much you try to run away from the fact, it will come and haunt you one day. We will all die.

"for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God (Rom 3:23)"... and "the wages of sin is death (Rom 6:23)"

So then, how do we face death? God has given me the privilage of sharing the process to death with many people. Some longer than others, some more painful and torturous. The knowledge of awaiting/inpending death is not easy. I recall a patient crying bitterly once:"医生，你懂等死的滋味是多么痛苦的吗!"

Indeed, the process of inpending death is a painfully bitter one. It is a journey of great uncertainty, not knowing when that moment would come. We lose all hope in living when we realise we don't have much life left. Why carrying on fighting when death is so certain? Why not just end it earlier instead of going thru the pain?

Yet, I've known of many who face death with such bravery and courage they literally shine in the face of death! They hold on to a hope yet seen, a truth so real that gives them life in the light of death. Yes, they hold on to the very Giver of life, the Living stream, the Everlasting hope. Even when their bodies fail them, even when the fact is that they will not recover, they can carry on living for they know they live for the God who has won victorious over power of death.

What a comfort and joy to know that we have a God so powerful and so loving. How I pray friends facing death can receive such comfort too...

Dearest Christine, you will be dearly missed by all of us. Thanks for sharing your life of encouragement with us, showing us the amazing love of God. May we see each other in heaven, in the fellowship of our God. Take care and God bless.

Dear J and T, hang in there! May the Lord grant you peace and strength to travel this last journey on earth. Keeping you in prayer.

爱的时机

Praise the Lord for guiding thru the past months of preperation for the play. Thank God it ended off with such a blast!!! To God be the glory!!!

It was indeed a great time of fellowship with so many brothers and sisters, and a great encouragement to see how we have worked together in love dispite our differences. Thank God that His love flowed amongst us, teaching us to speak truth in love and to tolerate each other.

But... ... I still don't understand... ... ... why did the audience laugh when I came on stage!!! It was supposed to be a sad scene, the peak of the emo-ness...sigh...never ask a real doc to act doc...sigh.......

Indescribable joy!!!

A joy that swells from within, so great words fail to describe.

I praise the the Lord, for this happened today not once but twice! What a double blessing!!!

1) Was sharing with someone (can't reveal identity) and he received Christ!!! I was so amazed, almost lost for words! Was sharing with him yesterday, when he was a little reluctant so simply ended with praying for him. Planned to share the gospel bridge with him this morning. Prayed for him the whole night. Went back to say hi this morning and when I asked him again if he believed in heaven, he said yes! Could not believe my ears! Asked if he believed in Jesus Christ, he said yes! Praise the Lord!!!! His Spirit works indeed.

But the work has only just began. Must continue to pray and encourage my new friend :) Oh Lord, give me wisdom to know what to do.

2) Received the card a patient left behind for me after my surgery SIP at TTSH (Thanks Dr Terrance and brother Reuben). It was a simple thank you card, but it spoke multitudes. I almost cannot believe I was holding a thank you card addressed to me :P I really didn't do much, simply went back after my last day to say hi (n bye) to the patients under my care. Didn't expect such a great return of blessing! What a great encouragement this is!! And what a powerful reminder to love as Jesus loved.

Such indescribable joy!!! What an indescribable God we worship!!!

I need you Lord

Thank God for leading us through the service!! Though it's ironic that the audience has to guide the performer to do a great performance, but that's exactly so :) It's purely by God's grace that we were able to play in coordination, to make music (and not noise), bringing the congregation in worship.

Preparing for worship never fails to humble me before the Lord. I'll always start of with an excitement and confidence, to find myself in a panic as the deadline draws near, to a fear before practice/sunday and rejoycing at the service. Thru each experience, God reminds me again and again that He is the center of worship, that He is God and I am not, that I must learn to trust Him and focus on Him.

Focus on Him...

Ah, had a terrible evening of emotional and Spiritual trauma. A realisation that I have left God out of the equation of my life. And when things pile up, I lose the focus on the cross and my heart/soul wonders into the dark murky waters...Ah, as Sam reminded me, it is now that we need to be even more focused on the Lord!

Am commited to deliberatly set time aside for the Lord, to seek Him each day. Father, change my heart and set it right before You. May I not treat you like an ATM machine, me trying to punch the right code for Your blessings. Humble me in fear of You, knowing that You have already poured out your blessings and all You ask of me is to follow You.

Embracing uncertainty

Some on asked another someone "You seem to like uncertainty"... That some one replied "No, I don't think so. I just embrace uncertainty"


I was quite amazed by the answer, words spoken by someone with great faith and wisdom! We live in a world that is everchanging and uncertainty lurks in every corner. And that irks many of us. We generally want to have some control over our lives, some certainty over things that are to come (thus all the horoscopes, predicting the future stuff). This even manifests in our prayer, where our attitude becomes that of expecting God to work things our way.

But that is definitely not God's intension. He never promised that life would be smooth sailing. Rather, we are sent like sheep into the wolf pack. There is NO certainty of our lives ahead, but only the hope we have in Christ.

"Embracing uncertainty"...Ah, what a lesson to learn