Thursday, October 30, 2008

Legal obligation of doc

A duty of care is an obligation on one party to take care to prevent harm being suffered by another...outside a hospital or a doctor's surgery, a doctor wld not normally owe a duty of care if he did not attempt to help. In other words, doctors are not legally obliged to act as 'good Samaritans'. However, once a doctor stops and either says he is a doctor, or starts to act as though he is a doctor, he has taken on a duty of care to the patient. This means that she is now potentially liable in negligence (ie can be sued).

Wow!!! After reading this off a medicolegal article, I would now rather people not know that I'm in the medical profession least I get sued for being helpful...

But is that ethical?
Is that Bibilcal?

'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind'; and, 'Love your neighbor as yourself.' Luke 10:27

*shhh...I am not a doc...*

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Man can't serve 2 masters...

"No servant can serve two masters. Either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other..." Luke 16:13

I always want the best of both worlds, barely squeezing time to accommodate 2 things (events, relationships, commitments)...Greedy eh...and very often, things clash and in the end, I serve neither well.

Then I feel guilty, disappointed, helpless, useless, miserable. Worst still, I become a lousy testimony before others...irresponsible, impulsive, half-hearted...

Yuxuan reminded me of the need to focus.

(Luke 16:13 cont'd)"You cannot serve both God and Money" and similarly, you cannot serve both God and Self...

Father Lord, I want to serve You and You alone!!! So come and be seated on the throne of my life!!!

Friday, October 24, 2008

Life without God...

My "hol" just came to end. 1 week of real hol and 1 week of diagnostic radiology...

While it has been an exciting and fulfiling holiday, as I reflect on the past 2 weeks, I somehow feel a little regret, a little disappointed, a little upset, a little empty... While everyday seemed packed with activities, yet I find myself struggling to start each day...especially during DR, nights are spent on so much "entertainment" tat I wake up feeling so fatigue and living the day like a zombie...

Not only so, I struggled with the lack of discipline, loss the will to overcome temptation, loss the motivation to care for others. I begin to make decisions based on my feelings "wat makes me feel gd", begin to become so laid back...subtlely and dangerously, God was no longer the center of my life...I was...

Indeed, I lost the motivation for QT. Prayer became less...if any, was for success in events. I cared less and less for wat God cared for, I no longer consider what God wld want me do, but wat I wld like to do...

Hols are so dangerous. They deceive you to think that you have much time in your hands, tat you have "control" over your life. When nothing else matters, "I" became the center of the world and God was just there to make sure things went well...

Life without God is MISERABLE n empty...

O Father, take control of my life once more!

Thursday, October 16, 2008

My hols...it's almost over :(

Ah, the hols really quickly come, quickly go...almost a blink of an eye and i'm 4/5 through my hols. So many things I wished I had more time to do, yet my hols has already been so packed:

Sun:
AM -- Church. Rally missed my 小组. Glad everyone has finished exams. Looking forward to our outing on 27 Oct!!!
PM --1) Karunaya (I'm so sry Bro Reuben for not being able to make it for the past few weeks) 2) Celebrating Kenny's b'day @ Minds cafe. Happy b'day bro!!!

Mon:
AM -- rest, i woke up at 12pm cos was watching 新鹿鼎记 the whole night/morning till 5am
PM -- had BS with Milton n Jonny. Really appreciate the difficulty of leading BS. Still have so much to learn, bout asking the right qns, bout accepting silence. Thank God for the passionate CGLs He has blessed VCF.

Tue:
AM -- had lunch with Grandma, then met SK to hand up log book n cards. Oh yes, bon voyage Sam!! Hope you'll have a great, blessed, restful hol in Aus. Come back with some kangaroos ok?
PM -- VCF!!! Finally, after so long. I totally miss everyone. It was great to be back in fellowship. How I wished could spend more time with everyone...

Wed:
AM --Rest (woke up at 11am), and went to see polyclinic for referral to NSC (yes, my acne!!!). Didn't know Hougang Poly shifte to Bungkok Green...
PM -- Dinner with SMA

Thu (Today):
AM -- With Aaron, MC and Shera to trek Handerson Waves (totally cool!! We took lots of photos with Shera's cam n mine. Thank God for the great weather, for beautiful nature and great friends.) Met Xian, Kenny, WZ and Jon who were mugging for Peads. ALL the best guys!!!
PM -- Visit 婆婆

Fri:
AM -- Lunch with Shen Kiat
PM -- Leading worship @ 中友

Sat:
AM -- send Ben off to the airport
PM -- worship prac for Sunday

Ah, a friend commented that shouldn't I be freer during the hols? My honest reply, hols always seem busier for me :) So many things to be done, so many things I want to do, yet no time/energy to do them...I had come up with a list of stuff I wanted to accomplish during this break, but I'm less than halfway complete :( Still got impt things to do like pack my OnG notes, call someone, prep for the worships, prepare for Patho, complete some serial etc...Arg!!! Father, how?!?!? Can I wish for more time?

But thank God He's a just and faithful God. He has given all of us 24h equally, it just depends on how we use them. Father, do give me wisdom to use my time wisely that your Name be glorified!!

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Anyway, a random tot tat came to mind. Shera was sharing tat we as doc have a very stable job in the future, cos wherever we go, we will be employed. So i tot, since we have the assurance of a stable job, why study so hard, be under so much stress? Just make it thru MBBS, survive HOship and then go be a GP somewhere. Don't need to worry bout trainingship or anymore stress... ... sounds gd eh? But is that what God wants me to do? Is that how He wld like to see me spend my life? The ans was a definite NO!!! And tat's why I'm studying so hard, giving myself the stress to know my stuff (and living in the constant fear of not being competent). Cos I'm answerable and accountable to God who has given me this precious chance to be in Med.

That's the beauty of med I guess, that we don't study just to pass, or to compete with each other. But we study so we can be competent to serve our patients in the future! I love med!!!

On that note...I'll better be bucking up. My foundations are really lousy!!! Oh Father Lord, help me!!! Discipline!!! Focus!!!

Friday, October 10, 2008

My prayer and confidence...

Into your hands
I commit again
with all I am
for you Lord
You hold my world
In the palm of your hands
and I'm yours forever


Jesus I believe in you
Jesus I belong to you
You're the reason that I live
the reason that I sing
with all I am


I'll walk with you
wherever you go
Through tears and joy
I'll trust in you
And I will live
in all of your ways
and your promises forever


I will worship I will worship you forever

Friday, October 3, 2008

If I was a baby...

Was mugging at Habourfront center Food Junction. OnG EOPT/MBBS in 4 days....stressed!!!

Took a break. Window shopped. Walked past MotherCare...

Saw the many parents and parents-to-be shopping for baby products. Out of curiosity, my legs also brought me into their midst.

Suddenly, I felt like a parent too. Thinking how I would raise my kids, how I would bring them to shop, me and my wife considering what to buy, the necessities and luxuries...I looked at the smiles of the parents all around me, and recalling the many interactions I've had with mothers thru the posting...This mini-excursion seems to make the whole process of become a mother more complete...the little out-of-hospital realities...

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On my way home, saw a dad piggybacking his daughter. An instant flashback of how my Dad used to piggyback me, who was exhausted after a day of excursion. As I slept in the security of his arms, laid comfortably on his shoulders and drooling onto his back...Ah, how I wish I could be a baby again...

I am a big baby secure in the arms of my Father in heaven!!

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ARG!!! The stress!!!!...Hahah...hallusinating...
But God's love is real!!! It's not an illusion...